The Forgetting

The forgetting
Is difficult.
The remembering,
Worse.

I missed u last night
I missed u this morning.

I meditated

I no longer miss u.
I love u.

And thru
All the tears
And the sadness
And the pain
Comes the one thought
That can make me
Internally
Smile
Again:
I have loved.

So let me love you,
For being loved
Maybe I am filled full.
In loving,
I am
Fullfilled.

But i don't want
To Build
My life around u,
I want to
Include u
In the building
Of my life.

And whether u think
I am worthy...

I am worthy.

I am worthy of life
And all the good in it.

I am worthy of my friends
and their friendship.

I am worthy of a degree of happiness
That could only be referred to as
Sinful, in less enlightened times.

I am worthy of creativity
Sensitivity
Appreciation.

I am worthy of peace of mind,
Peace on earth,
Peace in the valley,
Peace in my recovery.

I am worthy of His presence in my life.

I am worthy of
My love.